Yet I Will Praise Him

I seem to have been quite busy on here today! I'm sorry, I'll try not to be so active in future but it's my first day and you'll soon come to learn that I have a lot to say!

I was just in the shower - this is where I tend to do my best praying; the only time I'm ever really alone - and I had a realisation:

Even though my life has been difficult (to say the least!)

Even though I am still struggling, aching, hurting and yearning

Even though I'm in pain and desperation

Even though I need God right now, 

possibly more than I've ever needed Him before

I will praise Him!

We come to God in tears when life is difficult. This is absolutely fine, He is our Father and we have a right, as His children, to go to Him with our requests and cries for help and mercy. He loves to shower us with abundant love and blessings. He longs to reach out and connect with us, and most of the time, the only way He can do this is after we've already been broken.

I've been broken. I foolishly thought I had been pieced back together, superglued and good as new, barely any cracks were showing, but then as I was praising the Lord in my shower, I realised just how broken I still am. I sobbed as I haven't done for such a long time, and it hit me. I need God more than ever. I'm not "fixed" - I'm still a work in progress!

I may struggle in life. I may be in pain and be so frustrated that there is nothing else to do but cry. I may break down, time and time again, but I thank God for my brokenness.

He is moulding me, shaping me into what He needs me to be! Without these trials, I wouldn't be the same person. Without this pain, I wouldn't be able to relate to others in the same situation. It is these trials and difficulties which will form the basis of our testimony. 

Revelation 12:11 says, 

"And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony"  -(NKJV)

How can we overcome if we have never been broken; never struggled through the trials; never had a testimony? 

I praise You, Lord! I worship You through each of my trials and I stand on Your Word in faith. I will overcome and until that time - Your perfect time - I will praise Your Glorious Name! 

Thank You, Lord, for making me who I am, even though it's been difficult, I'd do it all again for You! 

Be Blessed

- Lisa